I’m just popping in briefly here. I’m not going to write a post about my grandmother (I’m not ready for that yet) but I needed to give you an update.
After a lot of hesitation, I’ve decided to take this summer for myself, so that I can work through my grief at my own pace, without any pressure, and above all while taking care of myself..
The last few months have been more than a little tough, with my shoulder injury, the loss of my beloved cat and then the death of my grandmother, who was one of the pillars of my life, all while finishing my dissertation and preparing for my final exams. Despite everything, I managed to get through it. I passed my thesis defence and as for my exams, we’ll see, but I think I did well. Now that all that’s behind me, I feel the need to have some time to myself and, above all, to be able to grieve in peace, one day at a time. I also need this time to be with my loved ones, to look after my family and to recharge my batteries with my friends. I’m not depressed or anything like that, I’m actually quite resilient. But being resilient doesn’t mean ignoring my emotions, it means acknowledging them and taking care of myself, whatever I may be feeling
So this summer I’m going to be gardening (my boyfriend is very happy that I’ve set my sights on plants rather than rescuing animals in distress, it’s true that tomato plants take up less space than a litter of kittens needing bottle-feeding), go for walks between the sea and the mountains, spend time with my friends and family, read, write, get back into exercising and finish the building work and painting at home (though my boyfriend’s a bit less happy when I come back from Leroy Merlin and say, “So, I woke up with loads of ideas for redecorating my apartment, you’ve got to come and help me put up 12 shelves and do 14 paint tests so I can decide whether I want green or terracotta for my hallway“)… I’ll be posting updates on my Instagram account, which I’ll be getting back to gradually in early July, so you’ll see there’s absolutely no reason to worry about me (and I might well be asking for gardening advice after adopting my umpteenth plant, get your tomato/orchid/lipstick tutorials ready, I’m going to need your help).
Stay strong to all those who are also going through this sort of ordeal. I’m sending you lots of love
Have a lovely summer
Je vous embrasse
